Monday, July 24, 2006

Moving Forward/Reflections

All is well in Rob land. The job is going great, the kids graduated and are having a wonderful summer, I've lost 11 pounds, and the dog seems to be finally making some new doggy friends with our new neighbours (the war is over).

Thanks to some of my buddies for having me over to play poker on Friday, sorry you lost all that money to me, mwahahaha. $113 bucks isn't a bad take home all things considered, next time we can have it at my place, just bought a new table that would be perfect for it.

Our Mentor Meet will be held in St. Andrews and I believe it lasts 3 days, all of the remote Mentors will be flying in to Moncton, where we will pick them up and cart them all on over to the Hotel. I'm really looking forward to this, beats the hell out of the Family Day my old employer gave us. It really amazes me how the smaller companies treat their employees so much better than the larger ones, I guess after a certain growth in a company it's no longer the employees that matter anymore, and that's just sad. I really hope this doesn't happen with GMS, they are growing so quickly and offer such a broad range of services that in no time they are going to be very very big.

A dialogue has been started between myself and a buddy of mine, I have sent an email to him explaining things from my point of view, as long as it stays between him and myself, I think it can be worked out.

Well another birthday has passed, and I have to say that it was one of the better ones I've ever had, it was a time of reflection for me and a time for me to really grasp how good I have it now. I still would like to move, and all things are now possible, but in the last few years I've really come a long ways. I think that the turmultuous relationship I had with my ex, the circumstances of why I took custody of the girls, the inability of coping with my brothers murder for such a long time, and other issues that I kept buried finally had a chance to air themselves and I was able to put most of it behind me. I look back now and wonder at the wasted time, but in hindsite I think I needed it as well. The death of my brother still haunts me and I still can't forgive. As far as my ex goes, I've come to alot of realizations, 1) She was one messed up cookie long before I met her. 2) I have two beautiful daughters through that relationship 3) Looking back, she really wasn't worth the heartbreak. (Although she was my first real love, and that's always hard to get over).

Well, my exercise routine got a boost yesterday, the friend of mine that I'm currently in dispute with, dropped off a Treadmill to me. Although, I certainly appreciate his efforts, I'm still really hurt by his previous actions. The treadmill doesn't really work all that well, it kind of jolts the mat so that you can't really get a walking pace going, becauseit jerks your feet backwards, lol. But it was the thought that counts, and putting everything aside, I still love ya man, and thanks for the gift.

Also, I'm trying to get a BBQ together for myself and some of my old buddies from SS. Really miss the laughs and joking around we had on a nightly basis. They were all a great bunch of guys with great senses of humor. I worked out a miscommunication with one buddy of mine, I had written a hasty goodbye email to them all and accidently left his name off the list, I think it was because he wasn't working at the time, and I was so flustered trying to get out of there that I just overlooked him. So, again DR my apologies if you read this.

I'm one more step closer to buying my own house, I've been buying furniture and appliances for when i do pick one out, but finally the Bank has given me the ok to start looking. I'm also looking to buy a new car, trading in the Tauras, according to the Bank, they can help me there as well. The only issue facing me now is that if I do decide to buy a house here, I'm committed to staying here, no more thoughts of leaving to Ottawa. So, I'm really taking my time deciding.

I started with Athabasca again for my new Semester, I've decided to change my Major from Computer Science to Psychology. My end term plan is to get my Majors or PhD, and actually do something to help others with it, maybe be a youth councellor or something. I love my current job, but I think I'd like a change. I got into the computer field mainly due to desperation, (new child on the way), and it wasn't what I really wanted to do.

And that is me getting caught up so far.

Robert